Monday, December 14, 2015

A First Birthday Eve

I know I have been pretty MIA from the blog these last few months, and actually I feel pretty sad about it. Between trying to be a good wife, the best mom I can be {um which is a full time, awesome, job in itself let me tell you}, human to my loved ones and graduate school and running (quite a lot with my superwoman friends) now starting a little business and my responsibilities being over the activities at my church and just whatever else life always seems to throw at you I just have not felt like I have had enough hours in a day.

But today everything else can wait because today/tonight.. I just tucked my sweet angel baby 11 month old into bed for the last time.
Tomorrow morning.. (ya know, technically at like 10 tomorrow night-but I'm going to try to not be bitter and let the fact that our sweet girl didn't want to show up ALL DAY slide and celebrate come 12 am) we are going to have a one year old.

Talk about the both happiest and sad thing in the world. I could not have imagined before the love and happiness and completeness my life has experienced this last year (and lets be honest the exhaustion and on call hard work 24 hours a day, but oh man it's so worth it)

When that little girl says, "mom" and gives me her big nose crunching smile like we are sharing the best secret and sweetly leans in to give me kisses just because I can tell she is trying to make me happy and when she smiles so big when I call her and comes toddle running or crawling as fast as she can to me (I could go on and on) my heart feels this happiness and love and gratitude for this little girl and my Heavenly Father and anything I did to bring me to this wonderful moment in my life.

Emery is such a special spirit. She is SO full of life and energy.. oh my gosh.. even when we are around other babies her age I still can't believe how much energy that little human being has. But she is so funny and playful-she loves tickling (she has a little body book she loves that you tickle a little boys feet and so she laughs and loves tickling everyone's feet).
And above everything I am so impressed with with her she is so loving and sweet.. it's amazing to me. She really never is bothered when other kids play with/take her toys (unless she is playing with my phone, then you've crossed about her only line) she really is so quick to give hugs and kisses and blow kisses and giggle and clap. I love her and love that about her.
She has a little baby doll that already if you bring it to her she can say "ba-bee" and she will hug and kiss and pat her back.
(Also, I love that she pats our back when we are holding her. I think it is so funny because I didn't even realize I did it to her until she started doing it to me.)

Anyway I could go on and on about her... and probably do all the time. It's so hard with how fast they are learning and growing you just want to be able to pause and save everything that is happening and it seems like time is just flying and some of these memories are slipping through my fingers (and memory).

And tonight while I was holding my sweet girl I thought my time with my baby Emery is almost over forever. And even though I love all of her new stages, I already am so excited to be my one year old Emery's mom but for some reason tonight I feel both a little proud and excited for the future and a little sad because a fun wonderful special chapter in my life (and Emery's) seems like it's closing.

Blake's cousin, Missy is actually in labor right at this very second so we are at their house and are so happy that we get to be a part of this fun experience but (I don't have very many pictures) and between all of the busyness of getting everyone into bed I only got to squeeze my Emery for a minute and I'm feeling like this year is going to end about the same way that it has passed- too darn fast.

So hopefully during this Christmas break I can catch up on the blog and save a few important memories from our lightening speed fast wonderful first year of being parents but for now I think I'm going to need to go hold and kiss and stare at my beautiful baby girl before my heart breaks a little in a couple of hours and she is not a "something month old" anymore.

I'll let you know what it's like on the other side of one year old motherhood tomorrow. Wish me luck. :)